Conscious Inner Transformation

One of the questions in the Quiz asks if you ‘do life more in circles than straight lines’.

I find that rather than having a goal and heading straight for it, my life is lived in more of a circular pattern. I have several areas that are important to me and that I attend to one after another – keeping everything in balance.  My attention shifts from one to the other – and it may look to straight line people that I’m flitting around not getting anywhere. To another circular person though, they will understand that it’s more of a dance – the steps of which are unique to me and follow my own inner rhythm.

There are times when I intensely do inner work, and shine light into my share of the darkness – to bring it to awareness and healing.  At other times I wholeheartedly re-connect with loved ones and friends that I may have missed while doing inner transformation.

At the moment, I’m in a creative part of my cycle. One thing I love to do is make felt – from natural fabrics and hot soapy water.  It’s a very tactile experience and brings my love of colours together with a physical creative experience that I find very satisfying.

Wool layout for felt

I think its important to find one’s own rhythm, which comes from within. Each moment then is freeing and fulfilling.

For years I felt as if I was a round peg trying unsuccessfully to fit into the square hole that society presented me with.  A lot of society is focused on going in ’straight lines’, meeting other peoples’ deadlines and expectations.  And if you are more of a ‘circular’ person – a soul-centered person, then you might have found yourself feeling pressured to conform as well. And feeling like a failure or a misfit when you didn’t quite come up to others’ requirements.

While a creative outlet can be enjoyable and relaxing, it can also help you connect more with your inner self, as you seek within for the next colour for the painting, the next chord for the song, the next line of the story.  If you are creating, the desire for its birth comes from within you, as do the inspiration and the building blocks, until you have the finished creation.  Yes, you can copy something.  But in order to create something unique to you, you have to find the piece within you and bring it out.

Sometimes “writer’s block” is encountered and you have to struggle to bring your ‘baby’ into the world.  But ask any mother and she’ll tell you that the frustration and pain of childbirth was worth it the moment she laid eyes on her child.  Writer’s block is a valid part of the creative process.  I see the struggle to overcome one’s block as a transformational one as we release a judgment or break through a barrier to one’s self-expression – especially if you are expressing your emotions or a memory in the creative process, when it can also be a healing experience too.

The more you do this, the more you become familiar with your inner direction and the more intimately you feel your soul essence speaking to you through your heart.  In turn this will assist you to live your life more in tune with your own personal rhythm.

If you are more of a circular person, you may well find that not only do you have times of creative expression, but that your whole life, when lived according to your own rhythm, is an act of creative expression in itself.

Another thing I’ve noticed about the creative process is that it is very deeply nourishing to me.  It is a period of bringing love and beauty through me out into my world.  And in some way this sustains me in those times when I face those shadowy aspects within myself that are still wounded and in need of love, acceptance, release and healing.